I texted him that I had his stuff at my house. And he responded. Now he is coming to get it Sunday. I'm an idiot. Yes, I know I am an idiot. I am not sure that this knowledge makes me more or less of one...or if there is only one solid way to be an idiot to begin with. Either way, I am an idiot.
But today - I feel happy. Ok, if not happy...at least hopeful. I went to an Al-Anon meeting last night. I found hope there. I listened to some music. I found hope there. Everywhere I turn, there seems to be a little more hope coming.
Now, I am not fool enough to believe that this feeling will last. I am sure I will drop to the pits of despair and desperation many, many times before this cycle is over. But for now, for this moment, I am enjoying my hope. I am allowing it to settle over me like a light mist, gently covering every exposed nerve and emotion I have on display.
Thursday, July 19, 2012
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Get the things together and have someone else be there to hand them off. You leave and go do something fun.
ReplyDeleteThat is beautiful and wonderful advice.
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